It wasn't until this summer that I realized that Senioritis was hitting me. Back in June was my first case. I traveled 8 hours from home to an Architecture summer camp at a university that I'm really interested to attend next fall. There I got to experience a little bit of campus life, by staying in the dorms there, interacting with current students and one of the professors, and to feel what a potential next home would be like. The thought of little ol' me moving on to higher education and living away from home to there was a big, scary thought, but it was a happy type of scary thought, if that makes sense. A lot of people don't like change in their lives, and I'm certainly one of them, but moving on to go away to college was a change I was ready for, for at least a year or so now. Don't get me wrong, I love home, but I'm ready to get out and experience something new, and that week long taste of "college life" convinced me even more. 

Time is a big reason why Senioritis exists. The reason why my big, happy, scary thought of moving on to college was scary is because that time was itching closer to make that thought a reality. Time is scary too. Time's getting closer to fill out college applications and scholarships, time's getting closer to graduate, but also time controls all those "last times", such as the last band camp, the last first day of school, or the last prom. But time is constant, we can't slow down, speed up, repeat, or pause time (but man I wish we could!) so all we have is the right now. Everyone has a different "right now", depending on what situation we're in and what we do as a reaction to it. For my "right now"s I'm choosing to enjoy them as best as I can.

For the "right now" moments, our reactions to them are vital, because our reaction to one "right now" moment will effect the next "right now" moment. Another case of Senioritis I've experienced was just a couple days ago. I have good amount of friends that are older than me, including some of my closest friends. Today was their first day of class at the local community college. I've noticed, even just after graduating, they have changed, especially someone that I considered my best friend. Over this summer she seemed to act different. I know acting different is expected and normal when leaving high school and moving on to college, but she was acting different in a worse matter. Her attitude changed, and she did things that I'd never expected her to do. Every time we were together she seemed snappy and rude towards me, and if it wasn't her way, it was no way. A couple of days ago she started acting not-so like a friend to me, and as a good friend I told her what was going on. She says I "upset her greatly" and that "I thought we were better friends than that." A good friend tells a friend when something is wrong. If anything, she upset me more than I would've upset her. In this "right now" moment, I've decided to not let her bother me any more. It's my senior year, and if I can prevent complication, I am as sure as heck going to. She's onto college and so I have to let go. Senioritis hits when your friends move on. She moved on to college and I'm still stuck in high school for one more year. Just because I have one more year, doesn't mean it has to drag or go bad. I'm not letting a problem like this hold me back, because my last year, should will be my best year.