Two. Two more days till May, 27 days left of school, and 36 days till graduation. 36. Thirty Six.

At this point, I believe that I've hit the climax of senioritis, which is no other than the time crunch. Graduation isn't years or months away, its weeks. Only a few more weeks till I'm no longer a high school student. Believe it or not, it's scary.

Don't get me wrong, I am excited to graduate. I'm excited to move on to the next chapter in the book of my life, but I can't believe the the time is coming closer for me to turn that page. 

Now, when I say time crunch, I really do mean time crunch. Seriously, I feel that majority of what I do nowadays is in a deadline-induced panic. Writing my last dual-enrollment English paper, turning in scholarships, telling myself I need to make my graduation invitations sooner or later, everything at once just needs to get done.

All the last times have already happened, last homecoming, last marching band season, last state conference, last prom; the only thing left to do is graduate.

June 3rd, that'll be the day everything is done, completed, finished. Scary, right?

You're probably reading this thinking that I'm worrying too much about this, and I would agree. Sometimes I need to tell myself to breathe. I deserve this diploma that I worked so hard for. Even though things are "done" on June 3rd, it only leaves room for a new beginning. When the Class of 2016 graduates, we all will travel to different places to fulfill exactly what we want to do with our lives.

I just want to say, for any graduating senior, it will all be alright. Don't second guess yourself, don't stress too much, and just breathe. You know exactly what choices are best for your future. And, its time to celebrate! Be happy of your accomplishment, and be excited for your next chapter.

What I've noticed with senioritis is that it comes with a dwelling depression. There are days that I feel totally not motivated to do anything. I seriously don't know why. Am I sad to leave? Am I afraid to be gone? Honestly, I haven't figured it out. But the best thing for this feeling is to be around your friends. Sometimes my family can get annoying (sorry fam if your reading this, I still love you <3), but my friends keep me upbeat and that's when I'm truly the happiest. I've noticed within my friends is that even though we pick on each other and make fun, we really do want the best for each other and we want all of us to be happy.

But what scares me is that I won't be able to see them as often as I do today. While it scares me and probably scares a lot of other seniors, I know that things will be fine. Real friends will keep in touch, and when you're in college (or wherever you may be) you'll be surrounded by a new group of people, which only opens up to making new friends. (Plus social media is a wonderful thing).

Now this blogpost might just be me reminding myself, but what I basically wanted to say was don't stress. Don't stress on the future, and don't stress on the past. Everything will fall into place and be exactly how you want them to be. And in the end, it will all be okay.

Just hang in there. :)

-mb.

(Sorry I haven't written in awhile, you know, senioritis and such.)